(Saturn) Return-ing to The Page

By Celeste Carbonell | August 24, 2026

Could this be Day 1 of me writing and posting until I get my creative spark back? Perhaps. I simply just feel like writing. Exhaling what's been on my heart. So I decided to try something different. Write for fun! Teenage me lovedddd writing on Tumblr and collecting beautiful pictures. So I thought, why not? Right now I'm 29 years old and I have about 5 more months left in my twenties. I can't help but feel like I need to accomplish something profound before I hit my thirties. Maybe it's the ambitious Capricorn in me. But I also have this really calm, grounding trusting voice inside saying, what's the rush? Why apply so much pressure with such an arbitrary timeline? I have so much time and so many more iterations of myself that I have yet to meet.

"Keep following your curiosity and be who you've always been Celeste. Just show the world."

Maybe I don't need to change a thing. Maybe I just be so present and grateful for this time in my life and stop striving and searching for something outside of me. Maybe I just sit deeper into the woman I've always been.

I'd rather listen to the voice within.

I'm going to be honest and vulnerable with you... It's felt like a stagnant, confusing 4 years. Four years ago I started my business, Celeste's Soul School. Since then I've explored so many ways of building a business: coaching programs, live webinars, in-person workshops, a free online course, website, wellness fairs, sound baths, podcasting, newsletters, YouTube, Instagram, TikTok. But I couldn't shake this feeling that some things were starting to feel forced and nothing was really lighting me up or taking off the way I wanted. Then I got discouraged and felt really lost, behind, unsure of myself. And then I didn't really take an intentional step back from my business...

I. just. kind. of. fizzled. out.

It felt more comfortable and safe to just write and reflect in my journal everyday and keep my thoughts tucked away, hidden from the world while I struggled to figure things out. Nothing crazy or exciting was going on. Just my mundane life. Routine. Wake up. Morning walk. Podcast. Breakfast. Gym. Scroll. Shop. Compare. Skincare. Sleep. Repeat. The majority of my 2025 looked like this. Hiding behind the to-do lists of the day and being busy for the sake of productivity. Distractions. Just kind of waiting around for something to happen in my life. Someone to notice my potential and choose me as the star of their new musical or something. Idk. Was I delusional? Maybe. But was I taking responsibility for my life to stardom by just sitting on the couch all day, daydreaming? Absolutely not.

I guess you could say I was waiting around for a miracle. For someone to come save me. Only then my career would finally take off!

But for a self-aware spiritual girly like me, it's hard to ignore what my intuition was whispering: How could anyone see my potential if I wasn't allowing myself to be seen?

Be The Lighthouse

So this is my attempt at putting my thoughts and truths out there in the open for people to see. This is me being a Lighthouse -- I'm turning on my light, showing up consistently in my joy and my truth so my people can find me.

I'm a big believer that standing firmly in your authenticity, brings your soul tribe. Perhaps this is your sign too, to be the lighthouse. To see the larger purpose in sharing your joy, your creativity, your ideas. You're not here to attract or please everyone. You're here to become who you've always been. You're here to bring people to your corner of the world to serve them in a way only you can. Through your way.

As I've learned in my life coaching practice and researching dharma (soul purpose), I've come to know that each person radiates their own unique energy and infuses that in everything they do. And when we live in alignment with our authentic self, this in turn attracts the unique community we're meant to serve and brings us pure joy, abundance, and success. That is why I love the metaphor of being the lighthouse. We just need to remember what lights us up and be brave enough to share it.

Want to join me in creating a career doing what you love? Or simply just find your way back home to the things that spark joy? Here are some questions we can reflect on together:

• What do I naturally create everyday?

• What type of energy naturally oozes out of me?

• What would I do everyday even if I didn't make money doing it?

• What version of me is being called into the spotlight?

• What moves me? Gives me goosebumps? Brings me to tears? Absolutely excites me?

• What feels like an absolute exhale?

• What do I have infinite energy doing?

The main question I want to leave you with is...

If something makes you come alive and gives you infinite energy, don't you have access to an infinite amount of potential to make an infinite amount of money doing that thing?

So I'm not going to make any crazy changes even when the illusion of societal pressures say to have it all figured out by 30. I'm simply just showing up as me and seeing where this goes!

My only plan is to write my way through and share it with you. No one else is going to figure that out for me so I will write until it reveals. I already get so much joy journaling and writing to learn more about myself and extract lessons from my life. So I thought, wow I do this everyday already, why not share it and see what comes of it? (Well of course there were so many barriers to sharing my raw self online like negative self-talk, judgement of others, messy unknown steps, etc. but I'll save that story for another time.)

So idk, maybe you're already doing what you're meant to be doing. Maybe you just need to allow yourself to be seen doing it and therefore you will attract aligned opportunities destined for you.

If you enjoy unraveling mysteries or indulging in self-discovery as much as I do, then consider sticking along for this journey and find out with me.

Your fellow Lighthouse,

Celeste C.